okay, so lemme 'splain...

wha' hhhhappen?

howdy folks. the young man is back, and he wants to explain whats going on. big ups to the homie merva for saying my blog is real. wow, i'm so urban. that didn't even sound right in my mind. thank you merva for your comments about the young man's blog.

my last post was pretty bleak and end of the world-ish. yes, its true, that paragraph i posted was not something i just happened to find. well, i did find it, but i found it in my cell phone under notes. i was in a horrible place, not so long ago. i mean really horrible, like that whole paragraph was the truth (ruth), and it was all off the top of my head. it was exactly what I was thinking - raw and uncut. i called the last post "disturbing..?" because reading that now was disturbing. it was disturbing to know that i was really at that point.

so now I am at a different place. not much got better, aside from my outlook and the drugs. yet now i'm low on meds and my outlook is dimming. i'm still struggling to get to where i can relax, breathe, or even smile for an extended period of time. it'll happen, I'm sure. There's a light somewhere in this tunnel, let's just hope its not another train. And I won't kill myself.

-tym