why?

so, the young man is on facebook, and he sees an old friend from his old (MEGA)church, from back when the MEGA part was important. this friend was also an actress in the first film tym ever wrote that went to production. she was made a part of said film at the suggestion of the young man (not that he is looking 4 props or anything). well now this friend is actually living in l.a. and is making movies. the green-eyed monster is prevalent everytime tym reads her updates from the set of the film she happens to be doing at the time. tym is very happy for her, but is so jealous of her and disgusted by himself (all at the same time). does this make tym a hater? do people still use that word? why can't tym just focus enough to finish his book? why can't he stop focusing on stupid pointless shite (cable tv, sneakers, music, software, whether or not he should be pursuing a degree, his $10 weekly dj gig (and the intricate detail he puts into it for a lousy ten spot), food he's not supposed to be eating but eats anyway, what people think of him/his clothes/his wife and kids, etc.), and focus on getting the f*cking words from his head to the laptop? why can't he stay motivated once he is in front of the screen?

-tym