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Tears for Fears Everybody Wants to Rule the World
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The opening lines of Tears For Fears' classic "Everybody Wants To Rule The World" are Welcome to your life/There's no turning back. These lines kept playing over and over in my head Wednesday as I drove home from my 9 to 5 of the past 5 years for the last time.

I arrived at work like any other ordinary Wednesday, thinking only of coffee, my weekly meeting and my need to place a Staples supply order. However, things played out nothing like I anticipated. We started out the day with an e-mail from corporate, which contained information eluding to the fact that sales hadn't been what we expected them to be for last quarter, blahblahblah, severance packages, etc. I didn't think anything of it at first, and went on about my morning.

First, my weekly meeting got cancelled, no big deal. Suddenly there are people milling around in the aisleways, which always happens, but this day seemed particularly focused on that e-mail. I went on about my business, joking with my crew, who were also strangely focused on this e-mail.

Fast forward about 45 minutes. My manager comes over, pulls me into a conference room with her manager and another manager, and within 10 minutes, I was escorted to the elevator.

Wow.

5 years, capped by the completion of my first project (that blasted infomercial), and a week after I turn that in, I'm downsized.

Funny thing is, when they told me, I felt "strangely fine", to quote Semisonic.

The managers seemed more upset than I was, and I think that threw them off. Excellent.

As I drove home, the opening line of the aforementioned Tears For Fears song repeatedly played in my head. This was the beginning of my new life. The life I always wanted, but never thought was achievable. I have run the gamut of emotions since Wednesday. Thing is, I got a decent package, so we are covered for a good long time. My worries are all coming from inside me. I am so scared to step out there, but I know this was all God's doing. Without going into detail, I have had quite an eventful January. But God knows what He is doing, and I have no idea what that is. I trust Him, though.

That being said, I shall get my freelance writing on, followed by finishing my book and some screenplays.

The Young Man is still the man. Don't count him out.

TYM